Hey internet. I actually want to get married and have kids. I think this creates a happy life as long as I pick the right woman. Suck it.

بقالي شهر أهو قاعد بطبطب علي اللي بحبهم وبسمع همومهم وبحاول أساعدهم في مشاكلهم. ومش هقول إني محتاج اللي يساعدني أو كدة. أنا بخير وتمام. بس الفكرة إني تعبت. خايف أكون بكدب علي نفسي وعليهم لما أقول لهم “كله هيبقي تمام وديه بس مسألة وقت”. تعبت من الحاجات اللي بسمعها. كل يوم بكتشف ناس جديدة مالهاش مثيل في الحقارة وإن دول هم السبب في تعاسة وإكتئاب أصدقائي. ليه ناس كويسين وطيبين حياتهم تبقي تعيسة بسبب دول؟ عندي أمل إن الفترة ديه هتعدي علي خير إن شاء الله وإن حياتنا هتبقي أحسن. نفسي بس هم يصدقوا ويبقي عندهم يقين إن عمري ما همشي وأسيبهم.

يا رب

A scary contradiction. It’s the most depressing time for some or the most cheerful for others. The night. Dark. Sometimes comforting. It differs from one individual to the other. What’s common between everybody, though, is what the night represents or symbolizes to them. The summary of that long tiring day. All what you’ve been thinking about all day long. All what you’ve been doing for the past 24 hours. This train of thoughts and events starts rushing through your head and there’s no way out; over-thinking will take over.

You had a good day. You’ll be all smiles and cheerful. You’ll be going through your phone if you were out with your friends and took photos or talking to people that you love and acting all stupid with them. You’ll dance to your favorite music and sit in the balcony if the weather is good. You’ll sleep with an empty mind and a happy soul. You had a bad day. You’ll try to feel better. You will go talk to your friends about what’s bothering you. You’d be lucky if you have someone who can cheer you up no matter how sad or down you’re feeling. You will keep thinking. A lot. You’ll be going through your phone if the reason you’re sad is because you argued with a friend of yours. You’ll look at the conversation and regret what you said or feel sorry for yourself because of what they said. You’ll try to sleep the day away most probably; hoping that tomorrow brings better happenings to your life. Or maybe you’ll just try to ignore what’s happening and look for what makes you happier regardless of its nature.

And some are like none of the above. They’re too hurt and depressed. They’ve been let down so much. An awesome and lovely day will still have a bad ending because they can’t stop remembering all the horrendous stuff that happened to them in their past. They’re too afraid that the future won’t be anything different. The night for them is a dark and sad atmosphere. They’ll go to sleep crying or hoping that they don’t wake up the other day. They’re scared. They wish it was possible to fast-forward this time of the day and go straight away to daylight where it’s a new beginning and the hope for a better life. They have the most worrying and uncomfortable sleeps. The night is a diverse phenomenon. An overwhelming presence.